I didn’t quite, but I almost loved you

I didn't quite, but I almost loved you. When you drove me home at 2am and for the first time we talked to each other like we had something to say. That night as we sat on the sofa watching TV and I couldn't even look at you for fear that the magic between us [...]

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It’s 2am

It's 2am and my phone dings. My heart lurches in my throat and I curse myself for not having it on silent. For not already being asleep. Because it wouldn't have woken me up and I would have slept through any possibility of me actually replying. Because I already know it's him. I know that [...]

Everything I ever wanted?

"You got it by the way. Everything you ever wanted. Absolutely everything you could imagine you could possibly ever want. What you spent nights crying about and days obsessing over. What you messaged your best friend about for weeks on end. The very things you would've given your life for. That you would've given up [...]

The things we leave behind

I feel like I have this awful habit of coming and going. Saying yes and then saying no. Changing my mind. Staying and leaving. Crying and smiling. Screaming and saying nothing at all. I'm pretty sure it drives the people around me insane. "I never want to speak to him again" I tell my best [...]

Cold as you

You have a way of coming easily to me. You have a way of taking over all my thoughts and feelings. You have a way of distracting me. You have a way of taking control over me. And when you take, you take the very best of me. So I start a fight because I [...]

I don’t know what to tell you when you ask where it hurts

Because it's everywhere and nowhere all at once. I guess that sounds a bit ridiculous. But what I'm trying to say is that it isn't a hurt. Or a pain. And I guess in general I'm fine. Completely and utterly fine. I went out a few nights ago and ate pizza and laughed until my [...]

Sometimes people ask me how you are and I don’t know the answer

Not speaking to people for ages is strange. They knew you for years but suddenly they wouldn't be able to answer the simplest question about you. They only know you from the last moment they saw you. From the last time you texted them. The last time you opened up to them. Called them. Turned [...]