My possible future life

This isn't quite what I imagined, you know. I waited for years for me and you to finally get our act together and make it work. I waited and waited for you to finally realise that we were more than just friends. That we could actually be great together. That maybe we were even destined [...]

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Everything I ever wanted?

"You got it by the way. Everything you ever wanted. Absolutely everything you could imagine you could possibly ever want. What you spent nights crying about and days obsessing over. What you messaged your best friend about for weeks on end. The very things you would've given your life for. That you would've given up [...]

The things we leave behind

I feel like I have this awful habit of coming and going. Saying yes and then saying no. Changing my mind. Staying and leaving. Crying and smiling. Screaming and saying nothing at all. I'm pretty sure it drives the people around me insane. "I never want to speak to him again" I tell my best [...]

Eighteen

"For a minute there I thought you might be in love with me or something" You said staring at me with those wide eyes and questioning glance. And for a millisecond my heart was in my throat and I blinked twice thinking shit how am I going to get out of this one. And then [...]

What it feels like to actually start to move on

Moving on is not like a birthday or Christmas that you can count down the days until and mark it on the calendar. And you can't call up your friends in advance and plan something to celebrate. You can't plan for it and you certainly can't conclude it by blowing a candle or pulling a [...]

A letter to my 30 year old self

It's weird to think about how much will have changed in a year let alone 12. I've just turned 18 and that in itself is so so scary to me. So turning 30. Wow. That is literally terrifying. In my life so much changes in literally a week so I can't even imagine what will [...]

´╗┐The different ways you can miss someone

At first, your mind will work so so hard to forget that one person. Your mind will work overtime just to forget the mere existence of that person. This could be just because you want to forget about them completely. Or it could be because you want to mask the feelings of sadness or the [...]