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OCD

The first time I saw you everything in my head went quiet. All the constant questions and thoughts suddenly hushed. Disappeared. Silenced. Because when you have obsessive compulsive disorder you don’t really get a lot of quiet time. Even laid in bed I’m thinking. Did I lock the door? Yes. Did I wash my hands?… Continue reading OCD

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Anxiety is…

Anxiety is the never ending feeling of not being enough. It’s restless nights of sleep as you toss and turn. Because you can never shut off your brain. And the thoughts. And your feelings. It’s the things you overthink before bedtime and it’s all of your worst fears becoming a reality once you close your… Continue reading Anxiety is…

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Anxiety is controlling my life

It’s hard for me to talk to everyone around me. It takes me a long time to trust people and once that trust is broken, it never really comes back. I’m terrified of sending emails. That sounds stupid. But I will sit there putting off sending something as trivial as “Can I come and see… Continue reading Anxiety is controlling my life

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How to succeed at failure

My therapist asked me a question tonight that really got me thinking. I had a bad day today so my usual meltdown mode had set in when I blurted out at 60 miles an hour the story of my day before I had even sat down. She looked at me with wide eyes, waiting for… Continue reading How to succeed at failure

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Feeling in extremes

“I don’t know what living a balanced life feels like. When I am sad, I don’t cry I pour. When I am happy, I don’t smile I glow. When I am angry, I don’t yell I burn. The good thing about feeling in extremes is when I love, I give them wings. But perhaps that… Continue reading Feeling in extremes