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OCD

The first time I saw you everything in my head went quiet. All the constant questions and thoughts suddenly hushed. Disappeared. Silenced. Because when you have obsessive compulsive disorder you don’t really get a lot of quiet time. Even laid in bed I’m thinking. Did I lock the door? Yes. Did I wash my hands?… Continue reading OCD

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HAPPIER

How the hell do I do it How do I be happy For myself and for the people around me My friends all tell me I will be That I should be That I am and I just don’t know it But why don’t I frigging feel happy Because you hurt me And there isn’t… Continue reading HAPPIER

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He was the boy that I loved before

There is a place we have been before. A place to watch sunsets and sit wrapped in a blanket just watching the world go by. A place where the wind blows my hair in to your face and you roll your eyes and put your arms round me to keep me warm. A place where… Continue reading He was the boy that I loved before

calm · chill · Everything happens for a reason · feelings · Future · Heartbreak · Life · Love · memories · moments · moving on · overthinking · Saving Yourself · Things we shouldn't feel bad about · Uncategorized

For the first time I just want to live in the moment

For the first time, I just want to live in the moment. I don’t want to overthink. I don’t want to run every word, every action, every breath you take through my mind. I don’t want to have to second guess. I don’t want to ruin every moment by trying to decipher if you still… Continue reading For the first time I just want to live in the moment

Almost Lover · drama · Everything happens for a reason · feelings · First Love · Future · Heartbreak · Life · Love · maybe · moving on · over it · Uncategorized

He was never mine

That’s the most stupid expression in the world. ‘I fell in love’—as if you had no choice. There’s a moment, there’s always a moment; I can do this, I can give in to this or I can resist it. I don’t know when your moment was but I bet there was one. ― Patrick Marber,… Continue reading He was never mine

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Look what you made me do (blog about you again)

A couple of months ago I was still “in love” with this guy. I’m eighteen so I had yet to realise that I wanted a relationship with him. And I also had yet to realise that all he wanted was a no fuss, no drama kiss at most. So even though our “relationship” was fully… Continue reading Look what you made me do (blog about you again)

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How to know when you’re over someone

Hey guys. I hope you’re all well. It feels weird to talk directly to you all. I’ve missed you. Anyway. My heart hurts today. That physical pain that kinda makes you want to ignore it, kinda makes you want to crawl in to bed and kinda makes you want to die. But I had to… Continue reading How to know when you’re over someone