Closure does not exist

You know what is so annoying? That closure does not exist. It never has and it never will. And until recently I had been so sure that someday I would get closure on things I've always wanted closure on. But I've realised that I will never get it. Because closure means ending. It means peace. [...]

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New Year’s Day

It's January 1st. It's a new day. It's a new month. It's a new year. You could even say it's a new me. There's glitter on my floor from last night. From when I spilt my loose eye shadow all over the floor in a rush to get ready for pre drinks. Flash forward to [...]

All too well

I woke up one day to you simultaneously ringing my doorbell and calling me on the phone. I jolted awake so confused that I started saying "hello" to a phone I hadn't even clicked answer on. Messy hair, Christmas pyjamas (yes still), red dressing gown and with only one slipper on I sprinted down the [...]

He was the boy that I loved before

There is a place we have been before. A place to watch sunsets and sit wrapped in a blanket just watching the world go by. A place where the wind blows my hair in to your face and you roll your eyes and put your arms round me to keep me warm. A place where [...]

What it feels like to actually start to move on

Moving on is not like a birthday or Christmas that you can count down the days until and mark it on the calendar. And you can't call up your friends in advance and plan something to celebrate. You can't plan for it and you certainly can't conclude it by blowing a candle or pulling a [...]

I almost do

"I bet this time of night you're still up. I bet you're tired from a long hard week. I bet you're sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city. And I bet sometimes you wonder about me. And I just wanna tell you. It takes everything in me not to call [...]

How to (almost) move on

Think about drinking on a weekday even though you barely even drink at the weekend. Wish you had that to numb the pain. Realise you don't like the taste enough to drink it. Listen to your sad Taylor Swift playlist. See how long you last before the tears start falling. See how long your heart [...]