Never grow up

So I was babysitting the other day. Two little girls. And one fell asleep when we were watching Beauty and the Beast. Her little hands wrapped round my finger. Tale as old as time playing quietly in the background. So quiet in the world. Her little eyelids fluttering whilst she was dreaming. And when I [...]

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Hello November

I'm sat in bed at 11pm in my cropped sweatshirt and underwear. And the 1st day of November is nearly over. I'm tired and my period cramps are killing me. My hair needs a wash and I haven't packed yet and I'm going away at 7am on Friday. I'm irritated. And my sweatshirt says on [...]

I’m always running late

I have always had a problem with timing. I'm just going to blame it on my actual entrance in to this world. I was two weeks late and even then my Mum had to be induced. Sorry Mum. I'd also like to blame it on my parents. When I was younger I honestly remember frantically [...]

OCD

The first time I saw you everything in my head went quiet. All the constant questions and thoughts suddenly hushed. Disappeared. Silenced. Because when you have obsessive compulsive disorder you don't really get a lot of quiet time. Even laid in bed I'm thinking. Did I lock the door? Yes. Did I wash my hands? [...]

HAPPIER

How the hell do I do it How do I be happy For myself and for the people around me My friends all tell me I will be That I should be That I am and I just don't know it But why don't I frigging feel happy Because you hurt me And there isn't [...]

He was the boy that I loved before

There is a place we have been before. A place to watch sunsets and sit wrapped in a blanket just watching the world go by. A place where the wind blows my hair in to your face and you roll your eyes and put your arms round me to keep me warm. A place where [...]

For the first time I just want to live in the moment

For the first time, I just want to live in the moment. I don't want to overthink. I don't want to run every word, every action, every breath you take through my mind. I don't want to have to second guess. I don't want to ruin every moment by trying to decipher if you still [...]