He was the boy that I loved before

There is a place we have been before. A place to watch sunsets and sit wrapped in a blanket just watching the world go by. A place where the wind blows my hair in to your face and you roll your eyes and put your arms round me to keep me warm. A place where [...]

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For the first time I just want to live in the moment

For the first time, I just want to live in the moment. I don't want to overthink. I don't want to run every word, every action, every breath you take through my mind. I don't want to have to second guess. I don't want to ruin every moment by trying to decipher if you still [...]

Best friends can break your heart too

What should I do with the framed photo I have of us on my shelf? What should I do with the photos all over my social media of us with captions of "I love you" and "She's my best friend" plastered all over them. What should I do when it's your birthday? Am I supposed [...]

Look what you made me do (blog about you again)

A couple of months ago I was still "in love" with this guy. I'm eighteen so I had yet to realise that I wanted a relationship with him. And I also had yet to realise that all he wanted was a no fuss, no drama kiss at most. So even though our "relationship" was fully [...]

What it feels like to actually start to move on

Moving on is not like a birthday or Christmas that you can count down the days until and mark it on the calendar. And you can't call up your friends in advance and plan something to celebrate. You can't plan for it and you certainly can't conclude it by blowing a candle or pulling a [...]

I almost do

"I bet this time of night you're still up. I bet you're tired from a long hard week. I bet you're sitting in your chair by the window looking out at the city. And I bet sometimes you wonder about me. And I just wanna tell you. It takes everything in me not to call [...]

How to (almost) move on

Think about drinking on a weekday even though you barely even drink at the weekend. Wish you had that to numb the pain. Realise you don't like the taste enough to drink it. Listen to your sad Taylor Swift playlist. See how long you last before the tears start falling. See how long your heart [...]