Everything I ever wanted?

"You got it by the way. Everything you ever wanted. Absolutely everything you could imagine you could possibly ever want. What you spent nights crying about and days obsessing over. What you messaged your best friend about for weeks on end. The very things you would've given your life for. That you would've given up [...]

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The things we leave behind

I feel like I have this awful habit of coming and going. Saying yes and then saying no. Changing my mind. Staying and leaving. Crying and smiling. Screaming and saying nothing at all. I'm pretty sure it drives the people around me insane. "I never want to speak to him again" I tell my best [...]

Eighteen

"For a minute there I thought you might be in love with me or something" You said staring at me with those wide eyes and questioning glance. And for a millisecond my heart was in my throat and I blinked twice thinking shit how am I going to get out of this one. And then [...]

Forget how life is supposed to be

Forget about all the deadlines. The early morning starts. The running for the bus. The homework due in. The nine to five. The rush rush rush. Forget about all the things you have to run around and do in the day just to end exactly where you started. Back. In. Bed. Forget about being who [...]

I wish I had met you seven years from now

I wish I had met you seven years from now. I wish I had met you when we weren't young and stupid and utterly obsessed with the drama of high school. My love for you was never the problem. You were never the question. It was the drama that surrounded us. It was the fact [...]

Closure does not exist

You know what is so annoying? That closure does not exist. It never has and it never will. And until recently I had been so sure that someday I would get closure on things I've always wanted closure on. But I've realised that I will never get it. Because closure means ending. It means peace. [...]

Sometimes people ask me how you are and I don’t know the answer

Not speaking to people for ages is strange. They knew you for years but suddenly they wouldn't be able to answer the simplest question about you. They only know you from the last moment they saw you. From the last time you texted them. The last time you opened up to them. Called them. Turned [...]