What to do when you can’t sleep

Start by laying there for a little bit too long. Then start tossing and turning. Rearrange your pillows a million times even though you know you only like them in a certain way. Try laying on your back. And then your left. Then right. Then belly. But then your boobs start to hurt because they [...]

When enough is enough

Wake up at 8am but stay in bed until 11 just because you don't want to face the day quite yet. Drag yourself up when you're so hungry you could faint. Eat something. Go take a shower and finally wash your hair. It was getting ridiculous that you had left it for that long without [...]

A letter to my 30 year old self

It's weird to think about how much will have changed in a year let alone 12. I've just turned 18 and that in itself is so so scary to me. So turning 30. Wow. That is literally terrifying. In my life so much changes in literally a week so I can't even imagine what will [...]

What to do when you lose the “one”

Lie in bed at night and listen to the traffic go by. And the noise of your laptop you accidentally left on. And your breath going in and out, in and out. Try to feel real. Try to see if you can hear the conversations of the people walking by. Wonder if those people are [...]

The bitter truth about why we suck at moving on

We all talk a lot about moving on. About letting go. About healing and forgetting. About putting ourselves first. About saving ourselves. About putting the pieces back together after we're broken. We talk about saying goodbye, coming clean, washing away the pain. We talk about moving on. We write and we cry and then we [...]

The amount of time it takes to get over someone. Or maybe not.

They say that when you're trying to get over someone it takes half of the time that you were together to fully move on. So if you were together for a year, you have six months of living hell ahead of you. Four years, two years ahead of you. A month, two weeks. And so [...]

Excuse me whilst I delete you from my life

Will you just excuse me whilst I delete you from my life? Just watch me whilst I resist the urge to double tap on your picture of you smiling that smile that made me slightly weak the knees just looking at it. Whilst I hit you with a read receipt but with no reply. Whilst [...]

A list of things I try to do instead of texting you

1.Actively ignore your snapchats and messages. Always be sure to never open them until they’ve been sitting there for at least an hour. (A minute). 2. Remind myself you don’t give a shit if I watch them or not and this overthinking is borderline pathetic. 3. Pick my nails. Wonder if it’s possible to ever [...]

The different ways you can miss someone

At first, your mind will work so so hard to forget that one person. Your mind will work overtime just to forget the mere existence of that person. This could be just because you want to forget about them completely. Or it could be because you want to mask the feelings of sadness or the [...]

What to do when you can’t move on

Run yourself a bath at 6pm and accept the fact that you aren't getting anything done tonight except feeling sorry for yourself. Forget to pay attention to the amount of hot water you're putting in and end up stepping in to what feels like lava. Ignore the fact that your skin is screaming at you [...]