I think maybe you were the first person I could never really have. So I just silently hoped I could instead. I silently hoped that every single part of romance in your life would fail just so you would come to me feeling sad about it. So I could comfort you. So I could talk… Continue reading We Always Want What We Can’t Have And Darling, I Wanted You
Start by laying there for a little bit too long. Then start tossing and turning. Rearrange your pillows a million times even though you know you only like them in a certain way. Try laying on your back. And then your left. Then right. Then belly. But then your boobs start to hurt because they… Continue reading What to do when you can’t sleep
Wake up at 8am but stay in bed until 11 just because you don’t want to face the day quite yet. Drag yourself up when you’re so hungry you could faint. Eat something. Go take a shower and finally wash your hair. It was getting ridiculous that you had left it for that long without… Continue reading When enough is enough
It’s weird to think about how much will have changed in a year let alone 12. I’ve just turned 18 and that in itself is so so scary to me. So turning 30. Wow. That is literally terrifying. In my life so much changes in literally a week so I can’t even imagine what will… Continue reading A letter to my 30 year old self
Lie in bed at night and listen to the traffic go by. And the noise of your laptop you accidentally left on. And your breath going in and out, in and out. Try to feel real. Try to see if you can hear the conversations of the people walking by. Wonder if those people are… Continue reading What to do when you lose the “one”
We all talk a lot about moving on. About letting go. About healing and forgetting. About putting ourselves first. About saving ourselves. About putting the pieces back together after we’re broken. We talk about saying goodbye, coming clean, washing away the pain. We talk about moving on. We write and we cry and then we… Continue reading The bitter truth about why we suck at moving on
They say that when you’re trying to get over someone it takes half of the time that you were together to fully move on. So if you were together for a year, you have six months of living hell ahead of you. Four years, two years ahead of you. A month, two weeks. And so… Continue reading The amount of time it takes to get over someone. Or maybe not.