“Maybe we’re not supposed to be happy. Maybe gratitude has nothing to do with joy. Maybe being grateful means recognising what you have for what it is. Appreciating small victories. Admiring the struggle it takes simply to be human. Maybe we’re thankful for the familiar things we know. And maybe we’re thankful for the things we’ll never know. At the end of the day, the fact that we have the courage to still be standing is reason enough to celebrate.” Meredith Grey
I wanted to write a blog post on all the little things that I have always loved, or that constantly make me smile or anything I just really appreciate. I’m grateful for a lot of things and sometimes I seem to forget about these things and allow myself to be dragged back in to the hole that is depression. So basically I thought it would be a good idea for me to write a blog post where I explain what I’m grateful for and some of the things that I truly love.
When I wake up in the morning (without an alarm) and I stretch and I get to open my curtains and see the sun shining. Those are the best days. However 5/7 days of the week for me consist of a ridiculously early alarm blasting out some Taylor Swift song for me to snooze 5 times before I have to sprint out of bed because I’m going to be late. Sure I complain about these days but it’s become part of my routine. Be late and sure I rush but I’ll always have time to dance around in my pyjamas and that is what makes my day. What keeps me smiling.
Now if it’s a school day I am thankful for being able to share the journey to school with one of my best friends, whether it’s on the dreaded bus or if she is driving us to school. Either way I always know it’s going to be fun if it’s with her.
However if it’s a weekend I am thankful for being able to SLEEP. I never seem to get enough sleep so when it is a weekend and I get to sleep in; it’s a joy I cannot describe in words.
My cat. My little angel. I am thankful for her and her little meows waking me up and her little dirty footprints everywhere when she comes in after being outside. Oh also it’s pretty magical that whenever I am crying she suddenly appears trying to crawl all over me to cuddle.
I am forever grateful for my friends. Those people who are there for me no matter what. I could be angry or upset or annoying or happy and they would be there throughout it all.
So here I am trying to be thankful. I am thankful for the obvious things like my family, my friends, the house I get to live in, the food I get to eat, my education. But when it comes down to it there are so many beautiful things I could be thankful for. I just need to take a moment and look around. The world is truly beautiful. Maybe I should take a moment to realise that more often.
I’m thankful for what I have been through and I am thankful for what I have to look forward to in the future. Maybe I should start seeing the day to day struggles as reasons to try harder instead of reasons to have an absolute dramatic breakdown and cry. The fact that I am still standing and breathing and living. Well, that’s pretty amazing.
So maybe I don’t have to be happy all the time. But I do need to remember I have a lot of things to be grateful for. I am having a hard time at the moment which is undeniably why I can barely sleep, I am very very stressed and I can barely go outside. However that’s okay, I never really liked socialising anyway.
I have a special place in my heart for Taylor Swift, Disney movies, fluffy blankets, Grey’s Anatomy and chocolate fudge cake. I always try to bring out the best in people and make them laugh. But that’s just me.
So anyway. I wish you the best for today and I wish you the best for tomorrow. Keep looking forward.
Take care and try not to worry too much,